once again

So I'm tasting the air of freedom. It doesn't taste any different from the air before. Seriously. There so much to do but I don't want to do it. There are people to see but I can't bring myself to go. I think it's upsetting. Seriously. I think it's very upsetting. I know why I'm upset. I finally figured it out. As much as I was looking forward to things, it turns out that at the back of my head I didn't want them to happen at all.

But it's a little too late for that now isn't it. It's far too late now. I am after all, the girl that realises things when it's already too late.