sympathy for the devil

Of all the things to have happened over the past couple of days, there has only been one thing that stands out above all the rest. It's that as much of a survivor as a person can be, there will always inevitably be a point where they want to just give in to all the things that they know they should not. It screws you over so badly in the aftermath. It's somehow always so easy to say that shit happens. Or that we're only human.

YES we are only human. YES there is only so much that we can do. But we always have a choice don't we? I don't believe in a predetermined future. I believe that there are some things that are going to happen whether we like it or not but it is happening because of the choices that we make.

And yet sometimes the right or best decision doesn't always lead to immediate happiness. But life isn't like dream interpretations where you pay attention to the smaller things. Life is all about the bigger picture. If you think that you'd rather make yourself happy just for a little while and deal with the shit later or worse yet try to push it away, it's really your prerogative. But don't go blaming others who have had the guts to call it as they see it. Don't blame people for having their own opinions. You might not like what people have to say but you have to remember that more often than not, it's the people that give a shit about you who find it in themselves to tell you straight up or in a subtle way that this isn't the way to go. They may be right and they may be wrong but it's an effort none the less.

And yet... On the flip side, sometimes it may not be such a good idea to show someone you love so much care in hopes that you're actually helping them. Because it can just be another lifeline that makes them think that oh, so and so will always bail me out so it's ok. I can afford to do whatever I want.

Life's just complicated like that huh? But in the words of the famous punk rockers of New Found Glory, "everything happens for a reason". Memories hardly ever leave you. The ones that have a huge impact on your life never leave you. Sometimes it's just better to move on.