exploding implosions

I've never felt so... strong. I could feel it Jon... It made me feel so much better. It helped. But the amount of stress I'm under now is killing me. There's this perpetually cold burning at the back of my head. What's annoying is, I'm so full of energy but I can't use it. And i can't move because it's suffocating. And I can barely put my thoughts together. Not good. Not good at all. I need... Well I don't need. I want to smoke.