And I don't know what to do.

You know, whenever something bad or disappointing happens, you go through 5 stages.

1. Denial & Isolation
2. Anger
3. Bargaining
4. Depression
5. Acceptance

Big clue as to which I am currently in. I was in denial for far too long. But now, it's time to face the truth. As much as I want it, I can't have it. I still love and yet, I can't live like this. It's better this way isn't it? There's nothing left and it hurts too much to hold on. It's too late for anything.

I'm sorry but it's just too late for me. It's not that I stopped loving, it's just that I can't live a lie.