I have reached a point where I understand why I am doing this. The minute you come in to the picture, it's not about people. It's about... well, you know. It's infuriating. Quite personally, back then I wouldn't have minded. But now? Now it's different. I've changed and so have you. I'm not a toy that you play with whenever you want and left to collect dust when you don't. I'm not an object. I'm a person. A complex one according to Freddy. Perhaps that's the problem.

Complication after fucking complication. Like I don't enough to deal with right now. Why is it that people seem to love coming in and wrecking what little I have? I'm not really pissed off about that though. It's a distraction. I welcome distractions at this point. Especially now that there are an infinite other things that I cannot do anything about.

Look, I'm sorry I'm being vague again. But this time, the Kevin is... Well... I am. I am pushing myself to the edge of reason. It hurts where I am. But I've still got loads of reasons to keep going. I'll be with you. No. I'm always with you. Be safe.

PS: Stadium Arcadium. I LOVE!


Bells around St. Petersburg
When I saw you
I hope I get what you deserve
And this is where I find
Smoke surrounds your perfect face
And I’m falling
Pushing a broom out into space
And this is where I find a way

The stadium arcadium
A mirror to the moon
I’m forming I’m warming
State of the art
Until the clouds come crashing

Stranger things have happened
Both before and after noon
I’m forming I’m warming
Pushing myself
And no I don’t mind asking
Now

Alone inside my forest room
And it’s storming
I never thought I’d be in bloom
But this is where I start
Derelict days and the stereo plays
For the all night crowd
That it cannot phase
And I’m calling

The stadium arcadium
A mirror to the moon
I’m forming I’m warming
State of the art
Until the clouds come crashing

Stranger things have happened
Both before and after noon
I’m forming I’m warming
Pushing myself
And no I don’t mind asking
Now

Tedious weeds that the media breeds
But the animal gets what the animal
Needs
And I’m sorry

And this is where I find
Rays of dust that wrap around
Your citizen
Kind enough to disavow
And this is where I stand

The stadium arcadium
A mirror to the moon
I’m forming I’m warming
State of the art
Until the clouds come crashing

Stranger things have happened
Both before and after noon
I’m forming I’m warming
Pushing myself
And no I don’t mind asking
Now

The stadium arcadium
A mirror to the moon
I’m forming I’m warming
State of the art
Until the clouds come crashing

Stranger things have happened
Both before and after noon
I’m forming I’m warming to you

Stadium Arcadium, Red Hot Chili Peppers