why are you soo.... ARGH!!

Dunno why you keep saying shit like that. Don't you know it hurts? Whether you're joking or not? Do you realize that it hurts like mad coz you can even joke about that kind of thing? Especially when you know it's not true. Coming from you I would've really thought you'd have enough sense to understand. Apparently not? Sometimes I wonder if you're just trying to get rid of me. And I swear if you are then just fucking do it already. So I'm an oversensitive whiney bitch. I'm a devil and all that other shit. Go ahead, those kinda things I can handle. But not that. Not from you. Think of how irritated you get when I say it.

The more I think about it the more I think we're so different. The oddest pair to go out. But it's not easy is it? I'm stuck onto you. And I'm positive that it's not just some physical thing.

What I don't get if how you can say that you've adored me for the longest time or how you can say that you care more? I'm trying very hard to trust you. You know I don't trust easily. I consider you one of my best friends. One of the few people who I place even above myself. You ask how I made my choice and you fail to realize that they are not like you at all.

I love you.

I'm soo damned tired... I'm like gonna knock out anytime! I met up with Kenny today. Mary-Ann was over as well. Spoke to Rick for ages. The only people missing from the usual lot I speak to everyday are Luke who's at war games (poor baby) and Jed who is missing. As in I can't contact him. Dunno where he is... Will be seeing him on Friday though. I'm going shopping with Mummy tomorrow. Gonna spend time with her.

I'm dealing with huge messes now and I find myself wishing that I had more time. I want more time. I need more time. I wish the fucker would leave us alone. But nothing I want with reference to this issue I get. What else is new.

love ya