because we love our land

Although each day is like any other ordinary day to me now, today was excruciating. Yesterday, yes everybody's normal day time not my version of it, was just as bad. Until evening of course. But that's besides the point.

Being idle without purpose is beginning to bother me once again. I like it here no doubt, a part of me wishes that Deakin was in Singapore. iHouse was in Singapore and all that jazz. I wish it were so because I've reached a point where the only thing that I don't like about being in Australia is being so far from home.

Sure I've got loads of really great friends there but since when is one friend comparable to the next? I can't have my cake and eat it can I? But still, it doesn't stop me for wanting the impossible. After all, I always land up wanting what I either can't or shouldn't have.

It was a monday, when my lover told me,
"never pay the reaper with love only."
What could i say to you, except, "i love you."
And "i'd give my life for yours."

I know we are... we are the lucky ones.
I know we are... we are the lucky ones.
I know we are... we are the lucky ones, dear.

The first time we made love, i... i wasn't sober.
(and you told me you loved me over and over!)
How could i ever love another, when i miss you every day...

Remember the time we made love in the roses?
(and you took my picture in all sorts of poses!)
How could i ever get over you, when i'd give my life for yours.

I know we are... we are the lucky ones.
I know we are... we are the lucky ones.
I know we are... we are the lucky ones.
I know we are... we are the lucky ones, dear.

My dear, It's time to say i thank god for you.
I thank god for you in each and every single way.
And, i know... i know.. i know.. i know...

It's time to let you know. time to let you know.
Time to let you know. time to sit here and say...

I know we are... we are the lucky ones.
I know we are... we are the lucky ones.
I know we are... we are the lucky ones.
I know we are... we are the lucky ones, dear.
We are the lucky ones, dear...

Bif Naked, Lucky

No one can or should ask me. Not that anyone has. But I just want to get it out of my system. Nothing can make me throw it all away. It's getting harder and harder to hold on keeping my secrets. Keeping your secrets. But I am blessed. I am lucky. I'm on no ones' side but my own. I'm lucky that I can stay that way. I'm lucky to be able to live two sides of the coin without anyone making significant attempts to stop me.

I am.