i feel... dead

I don't only call you when I'm drunk!!! And I don't only miss you when I'm drunk either. So what if it's easier to talk to you when I am? Doesn't mean that I can't think of you lot otherwise right? I think about a lot of people and most of the time it's you so be happy that I do ok? Sheesh...

I don't know what to do or what to think any more. I want to do my work but I don't want to do it alone. Argh...