Poor excuse for living accommodations. It's how I've always regarded the apartment in which I spend a good part of the year in. It's not home. To me, it's a halfway house with a twist. In... a little under 8 hours, I'll be on a plane. Going back. I suppose the Sydney trip is something I should look forward to but I can't help but feel sad. I already cried when my brother sent me home. After he left of course. I mean, I always cry when I think of him and how much I'll miss him. It's even harder this time because we spent so much of my remaining time together. I haven't left yet and I already miss him. We talked about all sorts of things from our problems to the problem with the world in general. We talk politics, religion, music and films. Technology and good food. Anything you can think of, we've talked about it.I'm so grateful that we're close. I don't want to lose him and I never want to see him sad.

Be safe. And I will keep the promises I made. I will try to pray. I will make sure that I don't let things get me down. Everywhere, everyday, every instant, there is someone out there. We aren't perfect people, but I wouldn't change you. You're stronger than you or anyone else gives you credit for. I love you.


We always have a choice
Or at least I think we do
We can always use our voice
I thought this to be true
We can live in fear
Extend our selves to love
We can fall below
Or lift our selves above
Fear can stop you loving
Love can stop your fear
Fear can stop you loving
But it's not always that clear
I always try so hard
To share my self around
But now I'm closing up again
Drilling through the ground
Fear can stop you loving
Love can stop your fear
Fear can stop you loving
But it's not always that clear
I'd love to give my self away
But I find it hard to trust
I've got no map to find my way
Amongst these clouds of dust
Fear can stop you loving
Love can stop your fear
Fear can stop you loving
Love can stop your fear
Fear can stop you loving
Love can stop your fear
Fear can stop you loving
But it's not always that clear
But it's not always that clear
But it's not always that clear
But it's not always that clear

Fear and Love, Morcheeba