I'm sorry

Sometimes crying is the best option when you're trying to be the best you can be. Sometimes living for the benefit of others is a lot more fulfulling than anything in the world. Sometimes when I say I want to quit I really mean it. Sometimes the craving get so intense that I can't contain it.

But more often than not, I'm the liar that I never wanted to be. I am my own worst enemy. And the one things that I've been lying about is this: I'm not ok. Things are NOT ok. Things never have been ok. And as much as I condemn others for it, I live a life of denial and I cannot handle it anymore. I want to run. I want so badly to get away.

Oh and if someone can tell me how to stop the tears from flowing, let me know. I can't seem to stop them.