Can I sing a song for you?
Or maybe do a trick or two...
Would you be afraid?

Stay awhile you make me smile
Don't leave me here without someone...
Would you be afraid?

Take out the fabled angst machine
And let me in
Under the circumstances ma'am
I'm not so keen

Can I sing a song for you?
Or maybe do a trick or two...
Would you be the same?

Stay awhile you make me smile
Don't leave me here without someone...
Would you be the same?

Take out the fabled angst machine
And let me in
Under the circumstances ma'am
I'm not so keen

Take out the fabled angst machine
And let me in
Under the circumstances ma'am
I'm not so keen

Can I sing a song for you?
Or maybe do a trick or two
Would you be the same....

Fabled Angst Machine, Electrico

Accurately telling the world what goes through my mind now. I particularly like the second stanza. But sometimes things don't work out the way you want them to. I told my mom a couple of things today. She wasn't very surprised. It was like she'd already known and she didn't mind. I was surprised. I never thought she'd actually be ok with it. Although her idea of a date is quite different from mine. But all the same, it's nice to know that she does support me in everything that I do. She might transfer to Beijing indefinitely. Or Sydney. I don't know... If she takes Sydney then I suppose I'll apply to Sydney Uni's... And stop smoking permanently. I don't know... I've just been feeling relatively down these couple of days. So please don't ask me to sympathise with anyone right now. I frankly wouldn't be able to say anything that would mean anything. I mean I don't really care if you're far far away or if you miss your girlfriend. I don't want to hear it. Not now. All you people think you can come to me and I'll just shut up and let you rattle on about how you're upset about this and that. Don't you realise that in doing so, you're literally passing your problems onto me? And there are some who in order to have a conversation with, I have to lie just to be civil. Some of you I don't want to talk to anymore. It's just become so tiring. So if you don't hear from me, I've probably taken off indefinitely. For those of you who think that this is Jed's doing, please think again because it's not. My life doesn't revolve around Jed.

I saw HIM yesterday. Someone I promised myself I would avoid at all costs. Well, there you go. Hello if you're reading this. I know it was really messy but I don't want to drag myself back into that mess. I doubt any of you know who he is. Not even my secondary schoolmates know this one. Look, I've had enough trouble ok? I've just had enough.

By the way, I don't give a flying fuck if you think I'm childish or whatever. I don't care if you want to complain to your significant others that Mel's being melodramatic or a bitch or whatever fancy name you can think up. I'm touched you'd take out time with your loves ones to bitch about me. Am I that important that you worry more about me than your own happy little lives? Wow...