distrust

God, I hate this. I miss you so much it hurts. Distance is really playing at my fears and not to mention doubt. I'm sorry I can't be more trusting. It's just the way it is. I want to trust you don't get me wrong. I read your email Jed. I saw it. I know already. All I can say is I'm disappointed. And yet, I still love you. I don't understand why you just couldn't tell me. You'd be surprised with the amount of patience I have. I'm watching and waiting. I can't wait to hear your voice again. My regards to your friend. I still care about you a lot. And to the fuck wit who finds it amusing to tell me things that it thinks I don't know, fuck off will ya? Maybe we should talk. Then you'll see what's happening. Why you keep defending and running to the troll is beyond me.