I give up. I really do give up. Honestly, I really really give up. I can't handle having to deal with so many things at once and have the one person that I thought I could depend on just live in a whole different world oblivious to the kind of pain and ache I feel each and every day. To feel like I'm completely and utterly unimportant. Like I don't know any better, or I don't care. It's not like that. I don't want to give up but you know what, it's getting harder and harder each and every day.