Why do you have to be so fake? Why do you keep trying to be someone that you aren't? You're never like that in front of me? I reckon it's because you know that I know you. That I've known you since forever so I see through it. I'm proud of you just as you are. I'm happy that you've managed to overcome so many things. I'm happy that you're living the dream I can barely taste or see.

My music is my life and yet last night I found myself stuck. I couldn't write the song that screamed in my head. I couldn't find the words to express what really needed to be said. It happens doesn't it? Now and then even the best gets stuck. I hate it though. It doesn't allow me to do anything else. I can't manage not being able to do the one thing that I love so much.

Talking about things that I love, I was talking to Jada yesterday about things. I understand. I know that a part of me wants to say yes just for the fun of it. But... a part of me also knows that if I do, I'm going to regret it. So I'll just have to live with a no. And that is that.