If only I could find the words to explain my current state of mind. If only you could see the me behind this mask. If only for once people would just shut up and think of the possibility that things are not as they seem.

If only I could show you the world through my eyes. If only you could feel what I felt.

I am exhausted. Weird dreams again. My Godparents. One is in Perth and the other left this plane close to 17 years ago. I dreamt of sharks that wanted to kill me and dolphins. I dreamt of the graduation that I'll never be able to attend. But one thing that still blows my mind though, the number 18.