I never blog until I'm sad or angry these days. The benefit is no one reads it.

I'm not entirely sure about what I'll do. I've been pushing it aside, denying the fact that it'll happen. That can't be my defensive tactic right? Coz it's a stupid and insane way to deal with things. I can't keep ignoring these things and then crash when it happens. It's not like I got caught unaware.

Truthfully it's been good. Songood that I never want it to end. People end up disappointing you on one front or another and my notasstrictasilike policy of not expecting things of people is nothing short of denial again. What really happens when digital meets traditional?It's a wonderful mix really but traditional doesn't quite live up to it does it? It still doesn't quite live up to my notsupposedtobethere expectations.

I just want you to know that you've made things good for me. Bearable. Calm. And all around beautiful. There I've said it.

The long standing benefit of knowing no one cones here gives me the peace of mind to write what I can't say. Don't leave.