After sitting and thinking for many whiles, I realise that we've all been such pains in each others asses this year. It started weirdly and it's moving on in the same way. I'm not saying I'm not angry anymore, heck I still am. But the issue here is I'm angry at myself for not seeing it earlier. I feel sorry for letting you push me around. I feel sorry for not realising that in a strange way, we really were just killing each other.

And for God's sake, I AM NOT TALKING ABOUT JED.

Also, I have decided not to work period. Hahahaha! Unless for some strange reason there's a place that wants to hire me for 2-3 months after which I'll take off... I would also like to take this opportunity to knock some people on the head. You know who you are! And you know why too!!!

Sigh... I've never felt more disjointed from Church before. I don't rightly know exactly what I want to do. But I do know that I really really miss choir. And just singing in general. Voice is dying... Blah... (I know some of you think I can't sing to save my life but guess what, I don't care what you think so take your comments elsewhere...)

Anyways, to the people I love, loved and to the people who love, loved me...

Is it wrong for my to see you?
Is it wrong for me to pray?
For my life to be more than just a lie
Is it wrong, is it wrong

Is it wrong for me to need you?
Is it wrong for me to hope?
Coz it’s what I feel deep inside my heart
It’s not just some messed up lie…
It’s not just some screwed up lie…

Everyday in the smallest of ways
I watch you smile and laugh
Live and learn and live to love
Everyday your demure-ish ways
Makes me smile, makes me laugh
Telling me just how much I really love you

I can’t be honest to me
All this is driving me insane
Every time I think you’re gone; you come running back to me
Time stops, the world’s still spinning
And you leave me hanging on this empty dream

Is it wrong for me to love you…