Psychotic Rock Star

The melancholy life of the Psychotic wannabe Rock Star.

Wednesday, December 31, 2003

Finally it's New Years Eve. I knew that once Christmas came everything was gonna go down hill... I swear this life's a drag... And my pals are the ones stuck doing internship. I'm probably gonna die when I go in then... I mean look at me now... I'm beginning to really not like staying at home. Although I love my holidays hah! :) I mean who doesn't right?

Lori Carson Graeme Revell---Fall In The Light

It's in this moment, Hold on
When everything has come apart
It's in this moment
Right now
When it can come together

Raise your sights
What's there to lose?

Fall in the light

In all this trouble, Hold on
To the innocence with which you were born
There's so much struggle
Be strong
Find the faith you need to carry on

It's a long night
You're not alone

Fall in the light

Sweet air
It falls into place
Sun through the haze
Doesn't it feel a
Little like grace

It's in this moment, Hold on
When everything has come apart
It's in this moment
Right now
When everything - come together

Raise your soul
What's there to lose

Fall in the light

(Hold on)
(I know you'll catch me)


Damnit... There's really something wrong with me isn't there...

I'm on a bloody quiz frenzy it's scarey. This marks 4 days of being not intoxicated! Hah! Like that's a lot... I love my booze but I'm not an alcoholic.

Reds anyone??



be potato.

Pippin, or is it Merry??! The two are sort of interchangeable, don't you agree? "You fool of Took!" Gandalf is often heard saying to this young hobbit. Pippin's foolishness does indeed gets the fellowship into lots of hot water. Pippin may not be the brightest bauble in the box, but he at least he means well.


Take the "Which Hobbit are you?" quiz created by Cora Black!

So goth you're dead!
You are every goth-kids dream!


Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You?
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Christian! *faints*


Which Ewan Character Are You?
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Congradulations your Zoolander!


Which Zoolander Character Are You?
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Your Orli's Sexiness!
Yummy!


What Aspect of Orlando Bloom Are You?
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Alanis Morrissette


Which female artist from my Cd collection are you?
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Bjork


Which female artist from my Cd collection are you?
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You are Guenevere the queen of Camelot and King
Arthur's wife. Guenevere was best known for
falling in love with her husband's best friend,
Lancelot, and having an affair with him.


Which Lady of Camelot Are You?
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Lord of the Rings


Which Movie are you?
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Your Format: Game Sprite turned Sprite.~~~~
Neat! You used to be a game sprite, but after
meeting enzo, and wondering what it's like in
the real world, you tagged yourself to him.
Luckily, you're now one of the most dangerous
people. Gotta watch those nails!


Which ReBoot Character are you?
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Catwoman


Which Batman Villian are You?
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Your Format: Virus?~~~~
Hmmm, what to say. You are evil, but chaotic. So, I
guess no one told you that being evil had to be
all work. You show how fun it can be to be bad.
Too bad your brother is such a drag.


Which ReBoot Character are you?
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Your Format: Interface~~~~
Mee-ow! One sexy girl here. You don't let anyone
tell you what to do. If you want a man, you
show him by nearly breaking his back with your
affection. Cool down girl! You don't have to
kill them.


Which ReBoot Character are you?
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You are most like Sarah
You are loyal to your friends. Your imagination and
fantasys are what makes you differnt. Your will
to win sometimes can be so strong, that you
come across as cruel.


What Labyrinth Charater are you most like?
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Mirkwood Elf (Grey Elf) - You hail from the fair
realm of Mirkwood, ruled by King Thranduil, and
his son Legolas. You specialize in archery.


What kind of elf are you?
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Anthony -
You love the fact that you're the life of the
party. You crave attention and know how to get
it. Just remember, its more important to be
yourself than to be the asshole everyone thinks
you are.


Which Red Hot Chili Pepper Are You?
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"R-E-S-P-E-C-T
Find out what it means to me..."

Your song is "Respect" by Aretha
Franklin!
You don't take crap from others, and your standards
are pretty high for both yourself and those
around you.
But you're also so afraid of losing face that you
may spite yourself from time to time. No
matter what though, you're nobody's fool.


What's Your Song?
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costume
roleplay


What's YOUR sexual fetish?
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jubilee
You are Jubilee!

Though you may be young and inexperienced, you have
great potential and will someday become an
admirable figure. For that to happen, though,
you must overcome your juvenile belief system
and adopt a more mature view on life.


Which X-Men character are you most like?
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gambit
You are Gambit!

You are a fierce fighter and a good friend to have.
Your preference for solitude and your
attractiveness make you very intriguing to
those you meet. Unfortunately, close
relationships are few and far between for you
because you often have trouble opening up to
others.


Which X-Men character are you most like?
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The Consummate Hipster: newbies bow to him, everyone else just stares, as he swagger down the street with
You are the Consummate Hipster. Newbies bow to
you, everyone else just stares, as you swagger
down the street with "Little Green
Bag" stuck in your head.


What Kind of Hipster Are You?
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DisorderRating
Paranoid:High
Schizoid:Low
Schizotypal:High
Antisocial:High
Borderline:Very High
Histrionic:Very High
Narcissistic:High
Avoidant:High
Dependent:High
Obsessive-Compulsive:High

-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --



Hey, I really was on a rampage...

Rebellious
You're a natural born trouble-maker. You hate
authority and do everything you can to get
around the law, or in some cases, break it.
Naturally stubborn, you hardly ever sway once a
decision is made. Your nature is fiery and
courageous, and always out-going. You love
attention and usually have kinky fetishes
you're not afraid to explore. People either
love you or hate you.


What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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I think I remember why I stopped blogging. Something about how everyone online would more or less understand who I'm bitching about. That and something about how I'd stop filling in my physical journal... Hmmm... Who care ay? People kinda tend to lead too bloody complicated lives they probably can't be bothered about other people bitching about them can they? Least of all me! The one who bitches about everyone! :)

Personally, I am beyond caring. I'm actually beginning to look forward to the new school term. School starts on the 5th. Less than a week away and I'll be stuck in good old Mass Comm again. *sigh* Don't get me wrong, Mass Comm rocks and all but still, the whole idea of being forced to do this and that with the kinda shitty deadlines that all come one after the bloody other... It's totally going to kill what little social life I've got left not to mention all my late night movies.


Get this. On New Years Eve while the rest of the world will be partying and having a helluva good time, I will be spending my night at my cousins house before going to church. What an angel I am. Not that going to church is a drag or anything. Don't get me wrong. On some level I happen to firmly believe that church is a good thing and I should pray more often. Maybe then I won't be so confused. I digress...... Let's just say that Christmas this year was really different. I had fun. Maybe too much fun. (Let's not go there!) But I somehow see New Years as DULLSVILLE. It could easily be because of the fact that my holidays are closing and stuff. Or maybe it's just me again. You know, the whole depression shit thing that happens every now and then. I don't know what it is but I'll tell you now, this shit is so completely breaking me up.

I am so torn that I can't exactly pin point what the major issue is and it's driving me up the wall. It hurts so damned much to see like my closes pals suffer so much and I can't do anything for them. Worse still watching people fall into a fucking trap and friendships breaking just like that. After so much trouble to be ok again it just crumbles. But I guess in the long run if people wanna be childish and screw up a friendship just like that then it's not that worth it right? It can't be worth that much right? This world is so bloody fucked up. Sometimes even I want to just blow the whole bloody friendship over one tiny thing. I mean it's happened before and I've not spoken to the people involved since. Pretty sad huh... And yet sometimes I get this insane feeling to not let any of it touch me. As in get rid of the source itself. But even that is pretty messy! I guarantee that! Hahaha! It's funny now but if it happens again...

Damnit... I just need to break something.

And on the play list is...
White Stripes - Seven Nation Army

Tuesday, December 30, 2003

Great now I've made stuff work but I somehow can't seem to make my headings and stuff different colours... Damnit... I swear this can be so bloody infuriating!!!

On top of all that, I just ate dinner. Who would've thought Myojo Noodles could make you feel so darned stuffed! Damnit!

great now the bloody thing is showing up twice! ugh... I swear I'm doing something wrong... But I don't know what and my patience grows REALLY thin.

Artistic
You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be
poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and
creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.


What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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I'm trying my HARDEST to make this thing work. Coz I'm this close to giving up my domain. Honestly, it's takes too much time for me to upkeep it! This is a lot easier! :) But still, my programming skills are SHIT! Literally... So yea... What else to do besides do funny quizes with pretty pictures? :P

OMG... So I haven't blogged in the longest time... I never thought that I would land up giving up designing my own sites and start using blogspot hah! Kinda started when a friend of mine asked a simple question that made me realize that I've not been doing this in a long time when I used to add stuff in so often! :)
Let's just say my life is so bloody complicated that I'll be happy if someone could just TELL ME what the fuck is going on. I swear it'll be so much simpler then instead of cracking my head trying to figure out what's going on.

One thing I can say that's on my mind. I wonder if I should ftp this to my domain... heck, I wonder if I should keep my domain. I feel like changing it! haha!

I give up... this stupid thing is not working with me I swear!!! ack! I'd rather go back to webpagging thank you very much!

But then again I keep giving up on shit so bloody easily huh....